Just made myself a cup of deserving coffee.

It's another one of those nights where I'm not able to let my eyes closed. I'm still at chapter 3 of IHRM. Gee, this module is freakingly boring and each time I read it, my hate for it hikes up to an unbearable level. I keep on clicking on itunes and listening to music. Music and books don't coordinate any way you look at it. Concentrate concentrate, I tell myself but it's just too damn difficult to read the small words of the book!

I'm beginning to lose track of the things I have read. <_>

Well well, almost another week is over. I'm beginning to plan for the trip back to Malaysia in April. Whoa! Trip again? You might ask. Yes another trip back to my "tanah tumpah darahku" (for those who don't read bahasa, it means the place where I shed blood" :S).

A lot of things brought me back to memory lane today. Sigh, it's been 6-7 years I'm away from my family. Feeling homesick all of a sudden. How can I leave my family for six years and survived?
I don't really know. I guess time just tells you what you need to do. Two years back, I was planning on going back to Malaysia for good in five years time. I made a resolution and I don't plan on realising. I'm not ready yet. Maybe in 10 years time? When I'm in my mid 30s and have kids? I definitely want to show them around the school mommy went to, the place where I used to hang out as a kid and all the things that are nostalgic to me.

I spoke to mom yesterday and she's going to see doctor for further inspection of her femur. It seems that the pain that mom's been enduring for the past few years is due to the femur bone. It can be that she has osteoporosis. It's difficult being an adult now and looking at the pain mom has to go through. When I was a child, I thought my mom was a robot! She could work 24/7 without complaining! Amazing. I thought mom will never become sick or anything like that because she's a workaholic and she has never been sick. Now that she's sick, believe me, she's still moving around like one. I have always envisioned myself like mommy. Relentless pursuit of perfection (haha, lexus).

Alright, enough of crapping. It feels good to let things out here.

Back to the same old routine of reading. Good luck everyone!