Mad as a bull!

Do you have this problem when you are talking to someone, that person quickly talks about another thing without giving much of his/her input/feedback? It makes you feel like a loser because your topic does not generate any enthusiasm for response. It's shitty! It is worse if you are talking to someone you are bound to spend the rest of your life with! Okay simple reply like "yes", "no" is sufficient to end the conversation in a correct manner. WTF! Instead don't give me the blank look and then talk about something else. It's very rude! Why the conversation in the first place?!
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It's difficult to find someone to talk or listen nowadays. I rather talk to an object or my dog. At least odie blinks his eyes and I can make assumption that's an answer from him.

This month I still freaking owe $800 for my credit card and I'm working thrice as hard to recoup the funds to pay it off. It would be nice if barter still available. Talking about being insane.hehe...you know, my backyard has a lemon tree. wouldn't it be nice if I could use the lemons on the tree to pay off my debt..haha I shall bring a basket filled with lemons to the bank.

Let's blame the chinese for inventing $$$$. It has caused us human a lot of problems. And plastic makes matter a lot problematic. Which fU$ke& invented that?! I'm not a big spender (=P ya right) or anything like tat but I used to have a record of $4k in a month. Damn! I know, I know dont give me that look please. And the most inane thing was I couldn't even remember what I bought! Shit, I think my problem is the lacking of memory space available inside my brain. Plastic can really make your life upside down. Sometimes don't even realize that you have spent that much until you see the statement by the end of billing date. You starve youself, you work non-stop, you feel guilty over and over again.

If you are having the same problem,welcome to the plastic world and you are victim # "infinity".

Summer has started!

I had to work today but tomorrow should be day off. Summer has been great so far. Tomorrow is the longest day on earth, which is my birthday too. It's going to be a warm day and we aren't going to celebrate or anything like that. After being in a foreign country for such a long time, bdays aren't really celebrated anymore. Why? Because not only I don't have my family here, I do not have too many friends. Well it's not really like when I was growing up. It's easy to make friends because we have such innocent and pure heart. However, it's different now. People talk $$$, buildings, real estate, investments MORE than talking about being with friends and just chilling out. Maybe it's just the wrong bunch of people I'm mixing with.

I have another three months before my departure to UK. I'm not nervous, at least right now. I guess I'm quite relaxed and calm when it comes to being away from home. It never struck me really bad the first time I had to leave home. I was, well, enjoying it. =)

I can't believe I'm given a second chance to enjoy the pure innocent feeling of being in a different place. I like the "new" feeling. That virgin feeling is just unforgettable.

I mailed out the acceptance letter this morning. Felt quite good for accomplishing something. I'm going to take care of my accommodation matters tomorrow. And hopefully nothing holds me back.

Like I said just now, nothing major will go on for my birthday. Just regular dinner with my "family" especially my doggie.

Yes I'm older, but I'm definitely wiser. =)

Will try to take some photos to post.

Yippeeee!!

I'm going to UK this September. Got the letter from the university yesterday yay!

Fish and Chips, Beer, Beer and more Beer? And best friend =) Ummm, perhaps guys too..shhh

Wait da minute, the main objective is to study why I'm thinking about travelling already..=P 9 months of heaven HOPEFULLY!

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Chemo episode 1

Odie went for his first round of chemo yesterday. Woke up at 7am and reached the vet around 9am. It was in fairfield, california. It's called Veterinary Internal Medical Associates or short, VIMA. The oncologist is Dr.Sara Schachter.

We sat down and saw a chubby 40-ish woman with her husband. The husband has a blank look on his face. The woman was smiley. She smiled to me when I brought odie in. Then a door from behind opened and came a nurse with a dove white cat wrapped with a pink blanket. The cat was beaufitul with red paws and long whiskers. The cat did not open her/his eyes nor make any sound. I told myself the cat must be just taking a nap or had a painful surgery. The woman quickly grabbed the cat from the lady nurse and put him/her on her shoulder while using her face to rub against the cat's head. The cat still didn't move. The lady nurse with a forlorn face said "we cleaned her a little bit" and proceeded to close the door. The husband was standing by the counter to remit his payment. The smiley woman suddenly broke into tears. I could see the tears rolling down her chubby cheeks. The smile turned into pain. Then I knew she was carassing a lifeless cat. I felt sorry for her. I didn't know what to say. She looked at me and cried out silent tears. I opened the door for her and she said thank you. I was still speechless because I was in deep thought. The whole morning I could not forget the face of the woman and the cat. I was frightened. What if?What if I'm next to rub my head against odie's lifeless body??=(

World Cup is here!

OLE OLE OLE!

=P

Reflection of life

Odie went for his third x-ray yesterday and it wasn't looking too good. He came back this morning and as usual, he was wagging his tail, licking my face and I gave him the permission to sleep right next to me.

Now it is up to a point where I should try everything to prolong his life even for just one day. The clock is ticking and I know God will come and take him away soon. It's just a matter of when.

This morning I sat on the chair, looking at Odie, and let myself slip into deep thought. Odie. So if odie was human, what kinda human would he be? Odie was still sleeping like a baby with the IKEA bee I bought many years ago for myself but surrendered it to him because he liked it so much. Few more seconds, I came up with the answer. My Odie would be a man with no place for pain and he would be somebody that's so optimistic with life. People been telling me horror stories that dogs with osteosarcoma would suffer in pain, may sometimes whine or cough, or nose bleeds are common BUT my brave odie never heaved even a sound of pain. He never complained. Sometimes I might have neglected him because of my own chores or work, he would still sit closely to me and monitor my movement.



I won't shed another tear because of this. Odie is my inspiration. He's just a dog, yes, but he's one brave k9. He will always have a part of my heart and sooner or later, we will meet again. I am very glad that I was given a chance to take care of such a wonderful doggie.

To all my friends that have dogs, prevention is better than medication. We all love our k9 but we must not love blindly and neglect everything else around us. There are many things we need to know about our k9. It may be too late for me but I would strongly advise feeding raw to your dog.It's the best diet ever. DO NOT TRUST those commercialized dog food or treats on the shelves. If you have lived in asia, you would know that dogs or "wong choys" they die because of old age, not because of cancer or any disease that's deadly as soon as it's contracted. WOLF diet is highly recommended. If you guys need tips on how to feed raw, you can email me strawhoney@hotmail.com and I would be glad to provide information.

Cheers to life.