Ain't no trust in this world

I'm terribly exhausted right now. Slowly piece by piece I'm trying to patch myself back to reality.

I'm in disbelief and shock.

Why it is so difficult trying to trust someone?

My Flat

My first week of school wasn't really that bad. I'm just so free! My timetable has a lot of empty slots. I need to start being creative and fill in the slots.

So far, the best and most interesting subject is marketing research. Partly due to the fact that the lecturer is very motivated and informative. I bought my printer yesterday and whoa, I had to carry that monstrous 8kgs printer from city center back to my room. My arms were shaking terribly when I finally reached my room. I could not even hold the chopsticks. Man, I feel for those people with parkinson. It's really disturbing not being able to control yourself. Simple task becomes a chore.

I'm having problem with my flatmates. Apparently, someone left the cooker on and it did not happen for one time, but TWICE! The kitchen is also a mess right now and they left the cookie jar, the mooncake on the countertop, whilst whole bunch of flies feasting on the food! It's really gross! I wonder if they ate the food. They really need to go for some cleanliness bootcamp. It's simply unacceptable. We are talking about some adults here not some 3 yr old kids. They should be really ashamed of themselves. Another annoyance is that two of them are chain smokers. The management came up to install the restrictor for the window the other day and it's been chaos ever since. They continued to smoke but the window opening was restricted and that triggered the fire alarm. I'm going to just point fingers at them if management decides to give us a warning. Well I won't hold responsibility for something that does not concern my tenure here. It's simply difficult living with people that are not on the same line. I have stopped using the kitchen at night to give them the chance to mess it up.

I need to catch up on sleeping. I'm yawning continuously.

Good night everyone.

A letter to my Odie

Odie, where are you now? Are you happy where you are? I just spoke to your daddy on the phone. He mentioned that he left a lot of food for you. Cookies,madeleine,biscotti,those buns from your grandpa and lots more!WOW, what a lucky dog! =) But please behave ya my son. Eating too much junk isn't really that good for your teeth and for your health. You know when you were little, you hated your food. Mommy had to jump up and down, made lots of funny faces and noises, had to feed you like a monkey and you still never wanted to eat your food voluntarily. Sigh, mommy was really mad. Did you know that? It's a chore feeding you back then. But mommy never loved you less.

Two years went by, you celebrated your 2nd birthday. Mommy witnessed something different in you. You were more mature. You ate your food like a hungry wolf each day. Must be the hormone kicking in. Hehe. Mommy was very glad. But you were still acting like a kiddo! You stopped chewing your daddy's shoes but you dragged mommy wherever we went! I could only see the leash but not you! You were already 2 miles ahead of me! Daddy asked mommy when can we let you offleash. Mommy said "NEVER"! That's because mommy was afraid, you might run away. You made your 'gu jeh" tripped and fell. You made mommy crazy trying to chase after you. But odie, mommy never loved you less.

Third birthday. You ate your birthday cake. You ran around the table, waiting to blow the candles. It was as if you knew the cake was for you and you were the star of the day. Mommy said cake was bad for you but we still gave it to you anyway. Sigh, who wouldn't want to spoil you my dear. =) You were bigger and your coat was really beautiful. I'm a proud mommy. Everybody complimented how beautiful you were. I guess maybe that's why you were quite a snob. haha..but mommy never loved you less.

Odie, your fourth birthday. You were a mature dog, we thought. We went hiking together. You ran like a wild rooster!!You ran up and down the hill! Mommy couldn't help shouting at you for being naughty. You were supposed to show and guide mommy the path but you went berserk like a crazy dog! Mommy remembered the flea bites from hiking. Mommy had to bring you to the clinic the next day. We went to Tahoe. You loved the snow so much! You ran like a mad cow this time. Gosh! You chased after mommy that day. haha...daddy still has the clips from that day. =) Mommy threw snow at you but you didn't know how to duck. =P
You ate the snow. Daddy said no. Mommy said yes. You ate a lot that day. I bet your stomach must have felt uncomfortable. You slept with mommy and daddy in the hotel that night. You snored and you woke mommy up. It's okay son, mommy never loved you less.

Fifth birthday. Sadness was surrounding us. You were not well my dear. Your rear leg wasn't co-operating with your right. You had a tumor in there. Mommy and daddy brought you to sausalito. You acted like your usual self. You tried to catch the wave!! Mommy snapped a lot of pictures. =) Mommy knew, your fifth might be your last. Never thought our days together would end so soon my son. Mommy knew you were in pain. Yet, you were strong and ready to fight it! Mommy was so proud of you. Mommy and daddy would bring you to the park everyday, remember? You loved to eat the grass. Mommy started naming you "cow". You still ran despite the tumor restricting your movement. Son, tennis ball was your life right? You would do anything for it. =)
Daddy named you charlie chaplin. haha, and let's not tell people why. Mommy never loved you less.

Now that you are gone, mommy wept. Mommy never wept so much in her life. I'm sorry my son. Mommy could not be with you to share your agony and pain. Odie, my heart beats for you now. Every single heartbeat. Each day, mommy will look at some old pictures of you. Mommy can't stop smiling. You brought a lot of joy to mommy's life. You were such a good son. Only you have the power to make mommy smile and cry. We will see each other again someday. Mommy will never love you less.

My first f* day in school

I intended to post today but a conversation with my hon made me such a forgetful loser. I totally ignored the computer screen in front of me. So I'm back wanting to introduce my first day of class to the world. Well, too bad, it sux. Yup, I woke up religiously at 7.30am to prepare my breakfast and prepare myself for my class at 9am. Eve and I walked together to school today with the fog growing thicker and thicker, and we bitch-ed happily for the entire 20 minutes journey to our faculty.

Whole bunch of people were waiting in front of class NB056 when we arrived around 8.50am. Good timing! 10 minutes to ambiguously glare and stare at others from the NB056 bunch. 9.15am, still waiting outside the class, with the crowd decreasing in size. Some were outside huffing and poofing. Smoking la! Aiyo not bring down the school.

9.30am, still in front of the class. Dumbfounded. Started talking to the guy standing next to me. He's Michael from Denmark. Wanted to make sure I'm not stupid enough to be standing in front of the wrong place. No, that's the right class. Waves of people started walking in and out of the faculty. There we were standing in front of the class like the guards from buckingham.

9.50am, haha, class is about to end in another 40 minutes. Still there waiting! I'm so freaking patient I tell ya. Who would wanna stand one hour in front of an empty class???KNN!

Well.....as my patience was running a bit low, there was this lady, she introduced herself as Claire. Okay so I was thinking, maybe we all should really beat the crap out of her if we found out she's the teacher and she's late!Turned out she's just some sort of timetable lady.=P So the usual crap, oh wrong timetable,just for this one week, don't worry, will get better next week.................and the excuses went on and on...She took us into the classroom, finally my ass got some rest. You know, how heavy ass can be. Then a lady with heavy heavy CHINESE accent came in. Her name is ROSE. hahaha Reminded me of the old ancient chinese movie, with the rose rose song. Okay, back to Ms.Rose. She's going to be our teacher for that one particular subject. She further introduced herself as a really really really really EXPERIENCED marketing manager and some other shit. She dwindled and dwindled. I was about to tell her "hey you are here for job interview?" She said "goodbye".=P

So we got out of the class around 11am. No more class, not until 12. So one hour of free time. So what do we students love to do during such short break? LADIES!! yeah, we were whoring the ladies room. It wasn't that nice actually. You won't want to see it.

Went to the next class and it was pretty decent.

What a good first day. Came back to my room and started jamming some music and made myself some freaking salty noodles.Yuck. Still in the fridge if anyone wants.

To be con'd..

@FFJDIU((@#^#)(_F Where's justice!????

I have a big dilemma right now. I'm going back to San Fran in December for christmas and Gary is coming to visit me before my school term ends. The best price I scoured from the internet was $377 American Airlines but with one stop. Thats not for me, but for him departing from san francisco. $377!!:O yes you heard me right. It's that good of a deal.

As for myself, the price is even :O !!!!$700!!I was like WTF????How come it is so cheap for him to get here and when I have to go home, it is $700! Justice plssssssssss!

I know some of you might say the BS tax shit at the airport and all that crap but $377 comparing to $700???hey, now that's a big difference!I can buy another ticket for him to fly over! Almost!

Now I am seriously thinking whether I should boycott getting on an airplane and swim home?

Where are you now?

Today is the 4th day since Odie been gone. Does he still remember his family now that he's gone to the best place on earth?

Odie, wherever you are, please do not forget your mommy. Mommy will always be here if you are hungry, thirsty, sleepy, just anything that you fancy.

It's really disheartening knowing that Gary is still keeping Odie's blankets in the car and making Odie's bed every night. Ivy is getting a golden retriever plushie to be kept beside her bed and Queenie is still crying over Odie's passing. I know it takes time to forget but I do hope everyone is able to move on. Let the past be the past and Odie will forever be the angel of our heart.

RIP

To all my friends and family,

Odie had gone to the bridge on 20th September 2006, 11.30pm.
He was a wonderful pet,family and friend.

We will never forget him and the memory will always be kept tightly inside our heart.

Have a wonderful journey my son. Mommy and daddy will cherish all the memories and joy you had brought us for the past 5 years.

Love,

mommy & daddy

My beloved Odie

Odie,

I feel your pain
Your agony as shown on your face
Yet I never heard your whine
I will never do
You are leaving for eternity soon
Your journey to your freedom
A world where no pain is recognised
You take your little step
And slowly you rise
with a pair of wings like an angel

Odie,

Go on and fly
Fly as high as you can
Don't look back
Your friends are waiting
You will get all the joy
Your favourite green green grass
Tons of blankets on the floor
Go on boy
The bridge is waiting
You are finally free now

Shopaholic with Sore Feet

I had a successful day. Why?I accomplished my mission of getting most of the necessities needed for this and next year.Even managed to add a new contact to my friends' list. It's really awesome.

Today is just my second day but I've been given the chance to explore what this city has to offer. So far, people here are quite friendly I would say. Thank God everything went so smoothly.

I bought so much stuff that I couldn't pass through the gate to my dorm.Bummer! The stuff here are not excessively cheap nor expensive. When you compare it to Malaysia, then it's ridiculously expensive but with USD, it's still around the same. I'm still able to bear with it.

My feet are still sore from all the walking since this morning. I think I might need a new pair of sneakers. Sponsor anyone??=P

Shopping is supposed to be therapeutical but after today my view has indiscreetly changed. I never had such sore feet before. Ouch!

Today I conceived a chance to walk around the campus as well. Extra weight to my poor feet hehe. The school is really huge and the buildings are quite confusing. My memory only tells me that the school comprises of some old english brick buildings that are church alike. I will spend more time soon and give myself a complete tour around the campus.

Oh ya, I still need some hangers for my clothes. Oh well, tomorrow then...

London Tour

I'm in london right now. The weather is nice but a bit too warm for me. The host of my trip has been doing an awfully awesome job. Kudos Siu Mun!!

It's nice to come here to check out the old architecture and put history to a better picture.

Will be uploading more pictures in the future. I'm flying to newcastle on wednesday!! =)

ciao ;)

Bye Bye Birdie

I'm leaving tomorrow at 4.30pm..I'm going to miss everyone =( Especially O-Dog